Some Things

One thing Not Nice:
i went for my first day of work near raffles place mrt. since it was my first day, i desperately needed to ask for directions. the first 2 persons i approached dismissed me with a sian hand wave even before i started speaking! and i deliberately chose those 2 because everyone else was walking past so quickly, while they were just standing around. i am not sure if they think i was trying to sell things or do some surveys, but i wasnt even holding anything! bleah.... i think people in orchard are friendlier...

i dont' like it when people are cold... is it just a part of urbanisation? i hope when i go to work next time i wouldnt change to be like that... but i think it's easy for anyone of us to fall into that trap amidst all the competition and chaos.... that trap of just caring about my own business, and not caring about anything or anyone else anymore...

One thing Nice:
i was at tiong bahru mrt this time. was going up the escalator when this boy rushed past. he looked about 9 years old. behind him was another lady who was trying to catch up. the boy was saying "bu yao, bu yao! bu yong jing!"/ "don't! don't need!". he was carrying loads of plastic bags. and the lady, which i presume is the mom, kept saying "hen zhong! tai zhong le! gei wo na, ah boy!"/ "its heavy! it's too heavy! let me carry them, ah boy!". and the boy jus kept running up, and the mom just kept running up too. while both kept repeating what they said.

heehe......what a considerate pair! the boy is so sweet!!! the mom is so thoughtful!!! both think of the other's needs first before their own's.... i like them!!!! haha..... it's really heartwarming to see that.... =)

Complete

taken from Complete
by Parachute band.

"So I lift my eyes to You Lord
In Your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And by faith I will walk on Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in You"

some days i forget...
He completes me. =)

Child's Play

shine or flicker above
the withering wick

below

is

where

the wind fickles as she likes.
she doesn't listen.

seasons may change
and fires die

but the wind pleases
till its time.

tickles and ticks
that child plays with tricks.

oh

it's not supposed to be so.

my dear

shine or flicker above
the withering wick

the wind says hello
shine like halo
as long as the former lives.

Summer's Rain

i miss blogging!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha....
been itching to write much sooner, but i keep telling myself i SHALL NOT blog till exams are over. and the fact that you are reading something new means tt this is it. exams ARE over. phew... =)

one day after my last paper was the start of a wonderful 3-days retreat with some wonderful pple with one wonderful God.

three days after the last day i am sitting in front of my laptop once again typing at this very moment. wondering what else there is to be said and done. well there's much...
may i use this time wisely.

it's summer hols! =)

Israel is Shameless, So am I.

"they say, 'if a man divorces his wife,
And she goes from him
And become another man's,
May he retun to her again?'
Would not that land be greatly polluted?
But you have played the harlot with so many lovers;
Yet return to Me," says the Lord.
-Jeremiah 3:1

i can't help but cry when i read this... i have played the harlot so many times.... been unfaithful so many times.... turned away so many times... yet He still waits for my return.

i am so ashamed at myself... but praise Him who is faithful.

Blessed

hey james, thank you for blessing me and for just being there...
i think you were God-sent yesterday. =)

thank You Father for sending Your blessings through a brother! =)

Lince Laughed Today

i take a walk today.
and He still walk besides me.
holds my hand.
refuses to let me go.

the wind breathes, sooths and
balms my heart.

the heat is a little discomforting, but its warmth
heals my soul.

i said, "i love the maker of it all!"
and He stopped walking.
laughed suddenly.
and guess what, i stop to laugh at myself too.

it's been a while... =)

Like Eating Lemon

of the things i need to let go.
of the things i feel you need to let go.

Dear Girls, A Prayer.

"Lord, I pray for a man, that will be a part of my life
A man that really loves You more than anything
A man that will take me in the second place of his heart
A man that lives not for himself but for You
Face and physical attraction aren’t important
The most important is I want a heart that really loves and has a thirst of You
and has a desire to be like Jesus

And he must know for whom and for what he lives, so his life isn't useless
Someone that has a wise heart, not only a smart brain
A man that not only loves me but also respects me,
A man that not only can adore me but can warn me when I'm wrong
A man that loves me not because of my beauty but of my heart
A man that can be my best friend in every time and situation
A man that makes me feel like a woman when I beside him

I'm not asking for a perfect man, but I ask for imperfect man
So I can make him perfect in Your eyes.
A man that needs my support for his strength
A man that needs my prayer for his life
A man that needs my smile to cover his sadness
A man that needs my love, so he could feel beloved
A man that needs me to make his life perfect

And I also ask ... make me a woman that can make him proud
Give me a heart that really loves You so I could love him with Your love,
not love him with only my love
Give me Your gentle spirit so my beauty didn't come from outside but came from You
Give me Your Hands that I always be able to pray for him
Give me Your eyes so I could see many good things in him and not only the bad one
Give me Your mouth that is filled with Your words of wisdom and encourage
So I could support him every day
Give me Your lips that I could smile at him every morning

And I want that when finally we met
Both of us could say
How great Thou Art that
You give me someone that can make my life so perfect
I know that You want we meet at the right time
And You will make everything beautiful in Your time
Amen. "

thanks kristia for the email! heh. duno who wrote it though...

erm i dun fully agree with one tiny part... about a man who needs me to make his life perfect, and about someone who can make my life perfect... it's both true and not true i think... ultimately, my life is perfect because of God. and his life should be too. =P
still.. i like the prayer... heh. happy belated valentine's!

1 Feb 2006

Today is a bad day.
not exactly. hmm... how should i put it...
it's good initially, and it's good most of the time. but when there's that one moment that's bad, it spoils the whole day.

i think i'm too sensitive.

one hour ago i jus feel like running away. from that one thing that doesnt go my way...
i think we all do feel that way at one point of time or another, don't you? to just run and hide... if you never felt that way before, good for you.

then i thought, one bad thing out of many good is pretty okay actually. maybe because i have alot of good things already, so there need to be a balance or smtgh. we lose some, we gain some right? for eg. a gal who has pretty eyes may has stubby fingers. or like a guy who has career but has no family. or like a person who has good grades, but has no friends. or another who is rich, but has no purpose in life.

so maybe, since i'm happy with so many things already, it's right that i should be given some things that make me unhappy. maybe some Higher Being above (whoever you believe in), a Force, Fate, something beyond us has got everything planned, and has everything balanced out. like the wheel of fortune in Julius Caesar, or like karma where good and bad revolves ard depending on our deeds.

i believed in a lie for a moment.
the God i know is not like that. He doesnt bless me for one day, and curse me another. He doesnt have mood swings. yes, bad things do happen. but God does not give good things, so that He can give the bad things later. Neither does He give the bad, then leave the best for the last. He doesn't toy around with our lives. He is not playing a joke on us. He also does not give something, then take away another thing for a return. God does not calculate profits from us. He does not need to. Jesus certainly did not expect a return when He gave His life for us. what can we give in return anyway? our lives? it's nothing compared to His. He simply gives because He is good.

I felt sucky jus now. But I'm glad i felt that way. it led me to remember something that's so easily dismissed as passe- God is a good God (no matter how i feel).

There is None Like You

taken from Michael W Smith's.

"i could search for all eternity long
and find
there is none like You."

*sigh... contented* =)

rythm is good. it keeps you running
and running,
running and
running and
running and
running.
that's bad.

know when to stop.

Wind and Confusion

there can be only 2 reasons if i take so long to blog...
1. There is nothing happening.
2. Too many things are happening.

I'm at option 2.
this draft consist of so many phrases accumulated for the past 2 months!

when alot of things happen... I sometimes think alot. And when I think alot, sometimes my thoughts are all condensed and they try to expand themselves. sometimes they pop, sometimes they brew. sometimes both happen at the same time. when that happens it gets tricky because i'm not sure if i should try to let these thoughts flow quickly in case i lose that train, or try to slow them down in case there're too many undeveloped ideas... what a pity if i were to merely pass them by!

so i'm going to cut and paste the rest of the phrases to a next draft. and i'll try to write more regularly... and hopefully be able to convey better the many wonderful things of one.

hAppY cHRisTmAS.... and MeRrY nEW yeaR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha.... =)

Post-It

Korean Taekwondo Spectacular last nite was well, spectacular. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else... they were so....... Z.A.I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. my heart was beating so fast.

SMU's peak period is here again. all schmates are in msn's busy mode... but it also means tt... there's only 3 more weeks to hols! =)

i need to learn more what it means to live is Christ. even if there's 3 a-thousand-words assignments, 3 presentations, 4 project papers, 4 finals. that's not what's bothering actually.

Thank God for Fleas, Mosquitoes and Bad Stuffs

from RBC Ministries, October 2005 newsletter:

"In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." -1 Thessalonians 5:18.

When Corrie Ten Boom was in a Nazi Concentration camp, her barrack was infested with fleas. One night when reading this passage, Corrie's sister exclaimed, "God wants us to thank Him for the fleas." Corrie said, "No way! I'm NOT going to thank God for these infernal fleas!"

Their nightly bible study had started to attract more women, and Corrie worried that they would get caught. At one point she asked, "Why don't the Nazis ever come to check on us?" "The Nasiz won't come near this place because of the fleas" was the answer. Then she exclaimed, "God, thank You for the fleas!"

Of Epiphanies

20 years of life, learning, verses, and thoughts:

1. charm is deceptive, beauty is fleeting. A woman who fears the Lord deserves to be praised.

2. yet i am still vain.

3. guys have egos. but girls have pride.

4. i like crooked teeth. and no... i don't have them myself. pls don't wear braces.

5. i dun eat apple. or tofu. or spaghetti.

6. practise random acts of kindness and senseless acts of beauty.

7. if a girl falls for a guy, i really hope the guy catches her fall.

8. one of the worst feelings is to have pple whom u care to not care.

9. i take v long to reply sms and sometimes i dun even reply. i need to change.

10. do unto others what you want others to do unto you.

11. voices need to be heard.

12. dance like noone's watching. sing like noone's listening. love like you're not going to get hurt. live like there's no tomorrow.

13. the heart is deceitful. be careful. guard it for it is the wellspring of life.

14. i love to write.

15. i oscillate between pride and condemnation. both are one of my greatest struggles.

16. i am not better than you. neither am i worse than you. don't judge. don't self-condemn. we are equally loved, and equally worthy in His sight.

17. Thank God for that!

18. i love girls. girlfriends are one of the greatest gifts ever.

19. i need to have enough sleep.

20. i think it's relatively easy to not do bad things, but harder to do good.

21. likewise, it's relatively easy not to hate, but it's harder to love.

22. i mean love, as in not just those people that are lovable. but to love those that are not lovable in my sight.

23. love God, love others, love your neighbours, love your enemies. as yourself.

24. because He first loves us.

25. the rich and the poor has this in common. the Lord is the maker of them all.

26. likewise, take away "the rich " and "the poor". fill the blanks with you and someone else. try fitting it in with someone you don't like, despise or judge. try again with someone whom you envy. the sentence'll still work.

27. i am a christian who happens to be a student. not a student who happens to be a christian.

28. God listens.

29. our understanding is so limited. but His words and ways are higher than ours.

30. trust Him.

31. the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

32. ask yourself today if you bear His fruit.

33. i am a child and a sister.

34. i want to be a wife and a mother one day. if it's in His plan.

35. i expect alot from my family and friends. i don't know if tt's good or bad...

36. don't listen to sad songs when you are sad. it's not theraupatic. it just gives you an avenue to sink deeper.

37. i don't want to treasure things less just because i have more.

38. dun make promises which u can't keep.

39. even if you think you can, try not to.

40. talk less.

41. only 2 things will not perish. the souls of Man and His word. that's the things that matter... people and Him.

42. not money, not fame, not power. these will only leave us dissatisfied, and feeling empty.

43. there'll always ups and downs.

44. hold on to the promise of eternity. have hope. be patient. don't give up.

Thank You... again.

we shudnt use certain words too often... lest we take it for granted. 1 of the phrases that i use most is... (ya ya a lot of pple commented before.... =P) "thank you"! haha... i really hope that i'm not overusing it to the extent that it dun mean anything to u anymore. it's just that i have no other words to say to express and appreciate people, and am at a loss to think of what's appropriate, enough, unlacking, better.

So there... thank you family, thank you friend, thank You God. =)

one of my greatest wish is to let all the blessings that you so freely give unto me, be freely passed on to you and others..... lince, pass it on!!! =)

Feet, Smells and Kisses

i thought i wanted to kiss Your feet... You know? especially after reading about the woman who wiped your feet with her hair, with her tears, and kissed it! i'm so inspired to adore You like her. heh... hmmz... but then... what if Your feet smells? okay i am sorry... i don't mean to be rude or anything... but would i dare to kiss Your feet if it smells?

hmmz.... i always want to do this the first thing i see You nxt time... *HUGZ!*

i will really hug You like mad... but after i read abt that woman, i feel that she's so humble... only dare to kiss your feet... i'm so fussy in comparison.... feet still must smell nice.... and want to hug You somemore!

but before i can finish my thought, You already bent down and washed my feet....

how come God, You can humble yourself like that???? and love me like that...... i'm so silly to think abt smelly feet... i think in heaven everything will smell nice too.... and You are so pure... surely'll have a nice smell......

i want to laugh and cry at the same time...