Twelfth Night of November

one and a half months more.

i'm not sure what to think abt tt. but i feel sad today.

there's someone that is very dear to me but i feel that he or she has been emotionally needy nowadays. or maybe he's always been like that, but i've just noticed. i am upset at the words he utter- so often discomforting, not in a good way when someone tells you a truth that you hate but badly needed to hear. but more like when someone gets defensive by blaming others with false accusations and words of condemnation.

and yet i know i have not been good to him myself. didnt live up to certain expectations, and i forgot simple but important things- things that matter alot to him. and that itself is upsetting.

i'm also randomly upset about death.

the music at the background is telling me that He placed the stars in the sky and He knows them by name. i'm looking out of the window and i see no stars. but i remember that they're there whether i see them or not. just like the maker of them all who remains faithful forever. He's here no matter i see Him or not. and that's comforting. and that's another reason why i sleep peacefully at night, and more so on the twelfth night of november.