Monday, February 28, 2005

and there she goes again
wishing to walk on water
daring not to look behind
for fear of turning into a pillar of salt

there she goes again
loved and embraced and hugged
lifted
and she knows
as she lifts her hands
that hands are meant to love and embrace and to hug
even if they tremble.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Have a Kit Kat

been really busy.......................................................
and it's supposed to be my break week!!!
but thank God that all my mid terms are over (except for psych midterm 2)... thank God for psych1 results... it's really by God's grace... guessing and getting it right etc. again for yesterdays bgs open book... i only read thru the summaries of the chapters one nite before, but somehow can find most of the terms when i was flipping... pHEw. i really dun deserve it... but thank You... =) heh...

hmm for the past 2 weeks...
besides studies, first time went along with the rest of lion dance pple to perform... though i only did cymbals, and carry stuffs, pull trolley etc... heh... that is so far frm playing e drums rite... but its fun! but its also tiring...
tkd trainings are worse.... sometimes i duno y i am getting myself into all these bruises. but tkd is fun.... heh. o well... fiNALly... tmr is e day!.... pray for me... heh. i have been getting butterflies in e stomach since i watched e matches today...
if there is one thing i learn abt e comp, it is tt everything is unpredicatable. u duno how the opponents are gg to spar...anD u duno how the referees are going to judge u...

10 more hours to my first match!

Thursday, February 10, 2005

oh by the way... happy new year! heh.
and thank you... for all the angbaos! =P

Thank You

"Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful
and the end of mirth, is heaviness."

prov 14:13. how true...
sometimes our hearts are aching, but our faces are smiling. and how naturally...

there're so many things in the world that are saddening.
everyday there're reports of sufferings... babies are killed, trafficked. there're deaths. there's the tsunami victims. murders. accidents.etc... on the personal level, there's disappointments. fears. sufferings. loss. betrayal. tears. -you name it-.

do you still smile inspite of all these mis-experiences? i am sure you can and you do. i know i can... but how about a real smile? let's call it the "say-peace-smile"... heh. not the kind of smile when we take photos and we say "peace"at the count of 3. but the kind where... hmmz... i know that everything IS ok, and in control... because everything is in His hands. there's really a sense of comfort in knowing that. and of course, a sense of peace...

besides, there are an equal or more no. of things that are better and are good! things that are sweet. happy. lovely. praiseworthy. n to be thankful for. n i just want to say... thank you! =)

thank you papa mama, and wil... for all the love... you all are the ones who have seen my very worst. really... yet you continue to love me! =)
thank you friends... and yes, that's most likely you who are reading this. heh. for teaching me so much about life! and yes, thank you for loving me too... =P
thank You Father!
for Your love... that is beyond imagination. for making me the apple in Your eyes, the princess in Your courts, and the beauty of Your creation.
for all the dreams that i have... all the hopes and desires that You inspired... and the heartbeat that i feel. thank You for this wonderful walk...
for beauty... for sunrise and sunsets, falling leaves, rain, the sun, and the wind, for even-breathing, warmth, laughter, innocence, all the colours that i see, rainbows, people! =)
thank You that i wake up each day knowing that i am not alone... that You are always in my heart, even when i feel that You are so far away... You are not.
Thank You for trials and bad things... it makes me grow up. *lince gives a say-peace smile* i know You are purifying and moulding me. to be beautiful! heh. inside out. so as to reflect YOUR beauty...
thank You for Your strength... esp when i am weak, and i fret.
for faith... for being so faithful to me... and not ever giving up even when i failed You so many times... and for making me be able to believe in what i do not see...
thank You for being honest to me, and risked Yourself being misunderstood...
thank YOu for Your grace... and all the little gifts that You give... so sweet of You!
thank You... for all that You have blessed me with. =)

ok does it sound like i'm at some oscar-winning stage giving my thank you speech? hahaha... okokz... you can stop throwing eggs at me.........................