Most Stayest

O satisfaction
where have your eyes flee?
your hands they grope

Satisfaction cries
out
yet silenced
for your voice too left
beyond your fingers. right
and right and you kept right
O pride!
till you turn
and return to the blind, to the dumb.

O satisfaction
where have your eyes flee?
O soul's satisfaction
can you breathe within, down, up to the one who stays?

I Need Your Prayer! =P

if all things happen for a reason, i believe this, too. though i know not why. yet.
i have no idea why that guy called, or what pleasure he gained from doing such things. i dun even know him. but it is maddening to know tt people uses good causes and abuses those. actually i was scared when i got the first call a few days ago. today i got the third. but i am not afraid anymore. if i really think abt it, there's nothing much he can do except to call and threaten. it'll be tough to get through the security guards and camera before he gets here. if ever someone is going to follow me or smtgh, i know i wun jus scream for help or cry. i'll run. if there's nowhere else to run i'll surely resist and fight back. hopefully i will never have to do that...
and i believe that guy needs help. pls help me pray for protection and pray for that person to repent and turn to God too...

hey all... we must JiAYoU!

been a long time since i see pple say the singapore pledge. the last time was.... back in nj? early in the morning i'll run frm the opp bustop to the side gate, across the track, up the hill, to the back (or front) of the school, look for S12, reached the back of the queue, throw my bag on the floor, just in time for flag raising...
other times i'll take taxi to the main entrance, and stroll my way...

haiz... anyway... when we place our right fist across our heart, it symbolises a pledge, a promise.
our brain is said to be the size of our clenched fist. hopefully our heart is neither bigger nor smaller... anyone can make a promise at any time, thought he/she meant it with all his/her heart at that time, yet can break it all the same at the end. anyone can change how they look, but its hard to change how they think, what they feel. when they do though, its even harder to reverse the change.

we are meant to think and feel and choose beautiful things. but when our heart hurt, and our head throb, let's try to choose this:
don't give up hoping on hope, don't forget to remember love, and have faith in our faithful Maker of these 3...

Just A Little Crush?

he pulls your pigtail, he notices details about you, gives little glances, sometimes his words come forth as sarcastic and hateful. and you wonder, does he have a crush on you?
she slips surprise candies into your bag, walks the same longer path home, she so hopes to catch a glimpse of you. and she wonders, do you know she has a crush on you?

okok... i actually did the candy thing before. *gAsP*
erm actually, i did alot more silly things before. *GAsP gAsP*

This is a story of a guy who had, and still has a crush on me.

2 days ago, my friends and i were sitting down on the smu quad field. we were looking at the green grass, picturing white roasted pig, squirrel, fish and rabbit running across the blue sky. listening to the crickets and lizards.

then i heard:
"Another summer day
is come and gone away...."
chris and i were listening to Michael Buble's "Home". and i said, "this is so appropiate..."

moments later, i spotted an aeroplane, the kind which leaves a trail of cloud behind... and i shouted "look! aeroplane!"

then we heard:
"...another aeroplane
another sunny place..."
and both our jaws dropped.

Ever notice how He teases you?

2 weeks ago, i was scorching under the sun, and was whining to Him about how hot it was... and guess wat. a huge cloud came over and shaded me. instantly.

He must have loved to see the look on my face.
and i bet He has more than just a little crush on you and me...

Everything is Made Beautiful in His Time

"God is God, and i am a girl.
saw Race to the Altar advertisement on TV just now. i know Jesus is the groom waiting for me to reach the altar. It's nice to think that i'm His bride. Even if there's others. but still... i'm His bride too. heh... this'll be weird for a man to imagine....
anyway, ya, racing to the altar. brides always walk down extra slowly on the isle... bet they are yearning to run instead. so exciting to be wed! duno y must walk so slow... if we can run, it'll be so much faster to reach the groom who's waiting there for us at the altar! i can imagine Jesus waiting for me... smiling and holding out His hand... as i reach the altar. heh... kinda excited thinking abt it.. but i duno if i'll be walking or running. i think i'll be running ba... lifting up my long puffy gown a little higher above my ankle so i can run without tripping. and high heels! i duno y gals must wear high heels! it's so painful! i guess it looks elegant and all... but it still hurts! esp when i have to stand for more than half an hour. o well....
if i run to the altar it'll take less than a few mins, so it wun hurt then... at least not so much.
i'll reach the altar, finally!
breathless... smiling, grinning!
i'll look messy but happy!
That'll be nice... =)"

tts something i wrote abt more than a year ago... heh. it's so funny to read things i penned down so long ago... as i read past letters, diaries, notes, etc, i see changes in my thoughts, in the way i talk and write... at the same time i see similar prayers, struggles, same traits.

i was so impatient and i still am. impatient to get a job. impatient to know who's the one. impatient to love. impatient to make decisions. impatient to wait. impatient to grow up! jus like jenna in 13 going 30...

i have repeated the same lesson on patience for so many times! and i realise God is not just interested in what i'll become at the end. He's also interested in the things i learn during the process of getting there. as He always says, everything is made beautiful in His time... and this is a beautiful time to wait.

"it's good to run... =)
but it's also good to take a walk at other times... a slow walk. it's great to slow down and relish all that is good- all of His works.
God is good."