Remembering His Goodness

i promised to write about this a while ago, but as usual, i procrastinate. procrastination makes me forget how i felt at that time, and it means my account will not do justice to the actual events that happened.

so instead of re-writing the account, i'm posting an email i wrote at a time when i still remembered what i promised to write...

11 April 2010

"dear sisters, how are all of you???? HUGS. i miss YOU!
heh it's been 2 months since i'm back... sometimes it feels like time passes by so slowly... but other times it feels like its super fast! heh...
i've started work for a week in XXX* international jakarta as a school counsellor. and i really thank God for His providence! a friend told me that XXX in jakarta is looking for teachers about 2 months ago, but i didnt apply since everyone at home tells me that it is super far from my home. but about 1 month ago, i went trekking with grace and jo (u girls know her?), and jo said she happens to know the principal of XXX and called him while we were in the car! and told him that i just came back from singapore n need to serve my bond to sgp and if he could help me get a job in his school... and so, i spoke to him for a while on the phone and he asked me to see him for an interview!

so while i had doubts in my heart about the distance and my parents' approval, i thought, hey let's just go and try since God opens the door. and hey! i got such a surprise when i went to the school....

first, the drive took only 25 minutes (which is considered near by jakarta's standard). there is no traffic jam at the timings where i am supposed to reach school and leave school. second, when i saw the principal, he immediately asked me if i wanted to be a counsellor instead of a teacher since i have a psych degree. of course i was more than happy to!!! because when i first came back, i actually asked my cousin, who's teaching in another international school, if they needed a counsellor. but they said no, and she told me that schools in jakarta still do not invest in having counsellors. so i kinda gave up that idea and prepared myself to teach instead... XXX do not have a counsellor position before, so i'll be the first, and i really thank God for creating the opportunity!

thirdly, the principal was willing to hire me from XXX Singapore HR department, so i am fully accountable to the singapore goverment for the bond. AND, guess what! when my dad came to fetch me in school after my interview, he walked around the school and was so happy with the environment that he laughed out loud, and told me that he is really happy that i'll be working there. and so... this is the first job that my parents have fully approved!! (previously, they don't like a job that was too far away, another job that require a 3-year bond or else there's penalty, and another company that was too unknown, and another job that requires me to stand under the sun since i had to go to different factories for some HR work)

so.... i really have to give thanks to God for knowing my desires and for the favour that He has given though i am so underserving! He is really our Provider. heh i've shared this with Y already so she's hearing it for a second time =P"

*i'm still undecided if i should openly blog about my workplace, heh so it shall remain XXX for now.

I think what struck is me is 1, how God honours my heart when He is pleased with what i desire- to be right before the Sgp goverment, to please and obey my parents, and to be passionate with my work. 2, God knows what we need and want even before we pray- even the nitty gritty details like workplace distance, traffic conditions, salary, etc etc etc, and He is working on what He thinks is best. 3, there are no mere coincidences. He will make everything beautiful in His time.

Extracted from my notebook:

8 Jan 2010, Fri
- call J
- inform KTB of new ccktb
- msg S for indo's correspondent
- apply as sch counselors to int schools

17 Jan 2010, Sun
- go P's house to pray?
- a cia's bday
- apply DBS (jobsdb), PSB, RIM Sgp Pte Ltd

23 Feb 2010, Tues
- 3.30 intvw DBS, lt 9.
- 5830XXXX J. Pak E. 2pm, Fri 5 Mar. call back to confirm schedule intvw.

16 Mar 2010, Tues
- pack at night
- print XXX' add n drxns
- ask E income tax, pay to?
- XXX: Tel 0218459XXXX, Jln BXXXX, KXXXXXXXXX, Jakarta XXXX.

17 Mar 2010, Wed
- intvw @ XXX 9am.
- look for books @ Kino
- get CD to save photos for J
- ask Y if there's any lobang

5 Apr 2010, Mon
- first day of work!
=)

grown-ups don't skip and run around the streets anymore like they used to when they were young. they also don't believe in many things anymore because they feel that they hadn't known reality back then. but truly, that sort of reality is the biggest lie that trap many of us into thinking that only now and here matters. what others think matters. only i matter. that there are no absolutes. therefore no point in holding on to what you think is truth since there are no truths. it doesn't matter. only what society can approve of you matters here and now. practicality matters. and that's true you know, it is good to be practical. but this reality that is drawn only focuses on being practical on the short term- to be most efficient. it doesn't encourage us to be practical to find solutions in the long term, in the long long eternity. it says, only now and here matters. and that's the biggest lie skipping and running around the streets with a smirk on its face, triumphant of the title 'reality'.