Do You Love Me Because I am Beautiful

or Am I Beautiful Because You Love Me?

thanks chris for tt quote... i like... heh. in canada super seldom watch tv... come back here then realise that i really like to watch shows... now like the 9 oclock channel 8 show... and it's ending soon... also like to watch nice advertisements... i like the Dove's Campaign for Real Beauty.

can check out:
http://www.campaignforrealbeauty.ph/supports.asp?id=3181&length=short§ion=campaign

see the results? it's a study for asian women's attitudes. only abt 3% to 5% women think they are beautiful. so few... maybe the results are biased because of the way the survey and questions are phrased and done... since asians are generally more reserved, and will feel that it's bhb and wrong to answer the survey honestly and admit tt they think they are beautiful... haha see? my psych research classes got use one wor...
the other result that strike me is that, among the Most Satisfied Category, Singapore only score well in the "Financial Success"... but She never appear at all in the list for Most Satisfied in "Family Relations", "Romantic Relations", "Friends","Beauty", and "Health". Contrastingly, other countries are doing better at the rest of the categories, even though they are less satisfied with their financial success.

Here's the song that Dove uses in the advertisement.

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

-Phil Collin's True Colours

do you feel tired carrying me on your back?
i must be quite a pain... it must be super tiring especially when i struggle so much. just cant stop resisting and wanting to walk on my own. other times i fight so hard... just so that you'll carry me the other way.
i can imagine you sweating. struggling too. to keep me still. trying to reassure me. trying to reprimand. trying to tell me that everything is in control. everything's going to be okay.
it's so ironic. now that i'm feeling tired, now that i have no more energy to fight, i suddenly feel so sleepy.
and only now, i am finally willing to rest on your shoulders. i dont really care anymore where you are taking me.
when will you ever get tired of me?

Under Construction

change happens as little and as much as time passes. it is slow and quick at the same time. i am anticipating some changes after the exchange- the major ones are yet to be discovered, but the little ones are quicker to surface.

Little ones like... developing and attaching feelings on the most unlikely thing.a street name. did you know that SMU is located at Victoria Street?

...feeling odd about the someone missing in the group, about the new yellow paint over the blue, or about a familiar person becoming unfamiliar.

...noticing things in a new light, and appreciating them doubly.
the wind feels good chilled and warm.
trees looks good bald and green.
sunset in Victoria is beautiful. ditto from an eighth floor.
heater and aircon are both ingenious inventions.
it's interesting how God fit our selves on earth. Canada has much space with few people, while Singapore has little space with many people.
singaporeans has singlish and finish sentences with a 'la'. canadians has like, like, well, it's like... they say alot of 'like', and like to end sentences with an 'eh', pronounced like an 'ei'.
etc.

i know it in my head that change is good, though most of the time i didnt feel like it. it forces me out of complacency and discover growth. i am also forced to learn of the one Constant who has always been there amidst both the pleasant and discomforting discoveries.

i'm back in singapore! and am still under His contruction...