Everything is Made Beautiful in His Time

"God is God, and i am a girl.
saw Race to the Altar advertisement on TV just now. i know Jesus is the groom waiting for me to reach the altar. It's nice to think that i'm His bride. Even if there's others. but still... i'm His bride too. heh... this'll be weird for a man to imagine....
anyway, ya, racing to the altar. brides always walk down extra slowly on the isle... bet they are yearning to run instead. so exciting to be wed! duno y must walk so slow... if we can run, it'll be so much faster to reach the groom who's waiting there for us at the altar! i can imagine Jesus waiting for me... smiling and holding out His hand... as i reach the altar. heh... kinda excited thinking abt it.. but i duno if i'll be walking or running. i think i'll be running ba... lifting up my long puffy gown a little higher above my ankle so i can run without tripping. and high heels! i duno y gals must wear high heels! it's so painful! i guess it looks elegant and all... but it still hurts! esp when i have to stand for more than half an hour. o well....
if i run to the altar it'll take less than a few mins, so it wun hurt then... at least not so much.
i'll reach the altar, finally!
breathless... smiling, grinning!
i'll look messy but happy!
That'll be nice... =)"

tts something i wrote abt more than a year ago... heh. it's so funny to read things i penned down so long ago... as i read past letters, diaries, notes, etc, i see changes in my thoughts, in the way i talk and write... at the same time i see similar prayers, struggles, same traits.

i was so impatient and i still am. impatient to get a job. impatient to know who's the one. impatient to love. impatient to make decisions. impatient to wait. impatient to grow up! jus like jenna in 13 going 30...

i have repeated the same lesson on patience for so many times! and i realise God is not just interested in what i'll become at the end. He's also interested in the things i learn during the process of getting there. as He always says, everything is made beautiful in His time... and this is a beautiful time to wait.

"it's good to run... =)
but it's also good to take a walk at other times... a slow walk. it's great to slow down and relish all that is good- all of His works.
God is good."